not even a single meal, not even a single glimpse of the outside world. i’ve been working on this paper ever since i woke up today. technicality can be intimidating in one way or another. i cannot give in to my lenity or otherwise i would have to suffer the consequences. gotta lift weights in a bit, gotta run in a bit. thinking of what to eat later on. maybe some light dinner. my endorphins from the workout will keep me satisfied throughout the entire evening perhaps. i have somehow gotten a hold of my infirm penchant with caprice. total recall is a relative statement when i thought i forgot my small-term goals. they’re all back now. brain is struggling and i have missed its comfort of being restless.
generally speaking, we are happier when we are still striving for achievement than when the prize is in our hands. – margot fonteyn